How many years does it take to trust again?
How many moments of being there
When my eyes open?
When I can predict what you will say
If anything happens?
To let go of that hard won shell?
To not expect once again
A loved one look at you
And say you were mistaken?
How many promises kept?
Hours of murmured love?
That happy smile when you see me?
Soft whispers of farewells?
I’ve earned my peace.
I’ve worked for my little haven.
Reconstructed from the rubble of
Hopes, dreams, and faith broken.
Held together by steel bars of resolve
Millions of tears well hidden.
I know what it is to have
Lost my world’s foundations.
I own every stone,
Every brick I set is my own creation.
How long does it take
To decide I’ll risk it all,
One more throw of the dice,
One more pretense of innocence?
-alka #alkawrites #alkaverse